How I Would Communicate

If I had my way I would be able to sit across the table from you and talk. We would talk for hours back and forth about today, about the past and about tomorrow. We could look into each other’s eyes and truly connect. But that not being possible, I would call.

To call takes less time but I might miss you and would need to leave a voice message. To call you might be interrupted by the kids or a call on the other line. To call I can’t see your eyes so we have to trust that the words and tone get through. But sometimes a call is not practical, so I will write.

To write a letter allows me to take the time to tell you everything that is going on in me. It allows me to proof read and rewrite until the right message and feeling is captured. To write a letter doesn’t allow two-way communication and may take days to get to you. To write takes time, but that not being quick enough I would send an email.

To send an email is quick and arrives within minutes. To send an email can be impersonal. To send an email allows for a faster response. To send an email can become a habit. To send an email allows the ability to hide the true feelings. To send an email can mask the hurt and pain. To send an email is temporary, but when that is not on the schedule, I will send a text.

To send a text allows the ability to connect and show you that I care. To send a text allows for the communication lines to stay open without interrupting the busy schedules. To send a text is only a tool until there is time. But now that there is time I will sit across the table with you and talk.