What If?

I make decision every day. I have had to make decisions that had outcomes with the potential for great physical harm. I have had to make decisions in my own life that have had lasting consequences and I may never know if they were the right ones.

I face a decision now where the risk to a personal goal is very high as well as the long term effect on my body. I am weighing all the options, but there is no way to know which way would be the best. I struggle; I don’t want to quit and disappoint myself and others. I don’t want go forward and succeed at a cost that is too high. There is no way to know what the outcome will be ahead of time. If I hold back and fail, I will always wonder; if I go forward as planned and can’t make the final step, I will have failed.

I’m not talking about a job change, a relationship change, a change that really is important in the grand scheme of life. Either way all those things are secure. This is purely about my own personal goal and struggles. And yet; I pray for God’s direction and strategy.

Proverbs 1:5